I am writing this blog tonight because i feel as though i just have to get my thoughts out there before my mind will let me finish my school assignment. There has been a lot of things going through my mind in the last few weeks and especially the last few nights. I have been trying to figure out my life and what is happening in it, how my actions as of late will affect my future, and lastly where i lie as a christian and what it means to be a christian.
I have realized over this past weekend that everything is not what it seems and that the image of a person can be easily faked into pleasing the present situation. In the last couple of days the true images of some friends were revealed to me and i feel as though it has turned me right upside down to a point of utter confusion. How could i have been so completely blind to what was actually happening completely baffled my mind. On the other hand i am extremely thankful because it showed me how easy it is for one to convince themselves that there is nothing wrong with what they are doing. The events that took place have provided me with an astounding epiphany and a depth of enlightenment into my own life as well as my own heart. I have realized that the way i have been living my life was not appropriate and the things that i had convinced myself of being correct were the direct opposite. I am happy that this epiphay took place before the trip to Peru. I honestly believe that the example i was setting would have ended up in devastation if i had continued without change before the trip. I just hope and pray that i can help other people realize what i did before something happens that will be regretted in the future.
With this epiphany also comes a chance to try and figure somethings out in my walk with Christ. This epiphany has made me question what a christian can or can not do or rather what a christian should and should not do. The major issue that i examined in my mind is alcohol. I believe that a christian can drink, the physical act of letting alcohol hit the acid in your stomach is not a sin. Then i asked myself the question should a christian drink? I used the physical act into tricking myself to believe drinking in any situation is okay. Now i realize that i have to be very careful in what situation i am in when i am drinking alcohol. I realized that it is to tricky for myself to distinguish and that it be better if i just avoided it everytime. These are just my opinions and decisions i have now made for myslef and i do not look down on christians that drink. Everyone has the right to answer this question for themselves. There are a few more issues that i have not finished contemplating yet but i will in the near future.
Oh well, its getting late and i still have to type some more homework so tootles and i hope that what i have had to say makes sense and that there was some reason for me to type this.
If you want to read a wicked book read Eragon by Christopher Paolini. I suggest you do so before the movie comes out in December. It is amazing!
